Self-care right now. Self-care. I feel like I’m in a state of mourning and physical pain. It sucks. There’s no sugar coating it. It sucks.

I feel helpless that I can’t do anything to take back his win. I feel angry that America did this. I feel sad that Americans support racism, misogyny, sexism, homophobia, and a general lack of respect for humanity (because even if that’s not the reason you voted for him, by voting for him you also support those things). I feel terrified that our country will crumble; be it on a macro level like war and/or on a micro level like racism between classmates because their example of our country’s leader will feel validated in their prejudice. I feel glad about how I don’t know a person in my personal circle of friends didn’t want him to win. I feel inspired to spread more kindness, peace, love, and art. I feel optimistic that the good people who definitely still exist in this country will take this as a call to action to do the same.

Spread more kindness, peace, love, art, understanding… Overall, I feel terrible. It sucks. I’m so sorry this is happening. I can promise you I am definitely taking this as a call to action to do as much as I can to help other people; and as real as I will continue to be with you about struggles we all face, I am going to do my absolute best to provide you with a space on the internet where you can go to find cheer without fail. He can’t take away our rainbows and inner sparkle. Despite my current instability in faith in humanity, I’m still altruistic. And I believe we can find a way to keep what exists of the goodness.

Self-care right now, though. Practice and prioritize it with all your might. It’s extra important in times of struggle, and this is a fucking struggle. If you need help, come to me. I love you.